It’s almost 2nd month of the year 2010. I missed blogging, sharing my experiences and personal life. I got busy on many things last year until now,almost i have no time for my self…haha! even my friends didn’t already invite me for an outing or gathering coz they already knew what will i say to them..But sometimes i asked myself “am i happy???” :) hmmm.. I don’t want to answer this question..haha! ( i just want to be quite in one corner of my room)..

All of us know that Life is very cruel, even we say that we are already contented in what we have but  we can’t deny to ourselves of what we really feel deep inside…(haha drama…) Even me, i have many questions in my mind for my self..i have many plans..i keep on planning and yet none of them came into reality..many times i felt low, depressed, discourage, down and other negative feelings…but…if i  will always feel like this..i can do nothing..nothing..so i have to stand again and pursue my dreams and plans even if it will not be realize..hahaha. One time, when i was alone in our house i went to our roof top, i sat down and look up the sky…there’s a  question came up to my mind..” Why God gave us this kind of life??” Maybe he wants His people to be strong always especially in our difficult times, he wants us to have more Faith to Him. So, I think we should learned to appreciate and be thankful to everything we have. We should be thankful that we are here, we should be strong enough to face all of our problems…hold on…Keep on dreaming..and planning…and let’s keep om praying ..this is one of my strength when i felt a negative feeling.

Okey enough for that, i will tell you another story, Last saturday when we have our field trip in our Engineering Economy class with our professor in San Carlos and other USC students, we traveled almost 1hour and 30 minutes from tagbilaran going to carmen to visit the Palm Oil plant there, in our way..i’m still thinking on something that i want but still i can’t decide yet. When i look at the surroundings while the bus is running, the nature, the trees, the birds and other animals..they don’t have any problems..right? hahaha What if GOD did not made human..? What if we are all trees or animals now??? hahaha ( i will not continue of what i thinking now, i am crazy..hahha). Back to my story, we arrived in Carmen almost 10am, lectures in few minutes and afterwards we went to  the operation site of the palm oil, in my 22 years at last i saw the ” Oil Palm” fruit..i can’t explained its shape just like  rambutan, grapes or a pineapple..hahaa i can’t described well .. we saw the oil palm how it will be processed and extracted to produced oil that we are using as cooking oil today..the operation manager explained to us the difference between the coconut  oil and the palm oil.. i am  curious about the operation but i can’t take the odor of the location and thanks to my candies inside my bag, hahaha i keep on eating while following my classmates and listening to the operation manager. That was a very nice experience, i learned more about business and also agriculture. After carmen, we take our lunch in sagbayan and then visit sagbayan peak and back to tagbilaran City. ( anyways i will post again about this if i have time).

Going back to my main topic, title of this post..hahaha Year 2010, new beginning, new life..?? As what i have said to myself i want for a change this year, new challenge, new life, self improvements and discipline, success. I want to be matured in making decisions..learn to be independent ( I hope i can..hehe)  While making this post, i’m still thinking for a decision, my friend advised me   always on everything but still no improvement..maybe i didn’t do it..DISCERN, be COMMITTED and have FAITH……….. I hope i can decide well without regrets..

Okey…It’s time for me to sleep..thanks for reading this post..see you next time! :)